You Create Your Life | Tobias' 30 Day Raw Food Challenge

Sunday, 29.05.11

The second day came to an end and only now I have noticed, that I have arrived in ME.

The trivial chatter is getting less, do I already run out of things to say? IMPOSSIBLE I never stopp talking.

I put some nice clothes on and a bit of make up and contemplated that, rather than doing it unconsciously.

I had something to eat and went for a walk along the grounds, just as long as the weather held off.

It has been quite rainy, but nevertheless got plenty of walking done.

The grounds are amazing and the house like a castle, drenched in peoples prayers.

I went back to my new home the art space, I seemed to have claimed my space, next to others dipping in and out, still busy being in their minds.

Another canvas, another picture filled my heart with joy. Williams ‘breitmaul Frosch’ smile it sat with me till I picked up the brush and painted. I had a little pic on my mobile phone which inspired me. WOW two hours later, I nearly missed lunch and there it was right before me, I did it WOW that is truly impressive. I am sooo shuffed with that.

After lunch I sat in a summer house and wrote again like mad. If this carries on I will arrive at home with Carpel tunnel syndrome.

The topic was clear, what do I want out of life in general. Love, home, job, health, travel, money…

pages on pages and I stopped when it was done.

English does not come easy in writing for me, it has been truly inspired my work. My handwriting so clear, all perfectly slanted a bit. No scribbles, no messing up, surely bound to have spelling mistakes, Yet so clear in word and picture.

I decided to go to the Eucharist, it was Sunday after all. The priest did not seem to pleased with lots of rain. If he would only know that God smells like that, maybe he would learn to celebrate it.

I did pray for sun shine though. I wanted to see a good sun set and try my hand at sun gazing for months it seems. The perfect setting with it setting right above the sea.

Dinner, and then off to try the labyrinth. I saw a little book and just opened a random page, it said you set an intention first. It’s like going within and when you are in the centre you meet God or yourself – for me that is both the same in a way. Stay for a while in silence and then continue with your path which takes you back out.

Simple enough, I thought. I set my intention to let go of the hurt of the past, simple. My mantra: let go of the hurt fill me up with love. After 5 steps I was crying a river again. Arriving in the centre I felt a weight lifted and an ocean of calm. I stayed for a while and carried on walking, this was the longest walk I have done.

I went into my cosy cottage, had a bath and an early night.

There is something to this labyrinth worth exploring – I want one at home!