You Create Your Life | Tobias' 30 Day Raw Food Challenge

Tuesday the 30.06.11

I got up early and went for a walk and just skipped breakfast completely. I had an apple and some seeds with me to the rock chapel. Too early to get in to get the key. What I did not know was that there was a note, at the place where you get the key to the chapel. A big black bull is out on the field to make many little cows happy.

I was just wondering checking out the cows, which I passed by nearly every day. One looked a bit big and not so friendly – oh oh he got no tits.

I was right in the middle, hard to make a choice, I started sprinting at once. The bull started charging and I started screaming, oh what a sight that was. I smelled his breath. This proved Yogies can run.

Needless to say I did survive, just to tell the tale( obvious ly not right away. Amagine having such a cool story and having to sit there chuckling at youself.

This time my pen took me well back in time to a time that I cherish, the time I met my God, the time I tasted the divine. I said my grateful thanks to it and meditated for a little while.

It just kept flowing I nearly missed lunch, and the sun came out to play.

I sat in the garden and played around, with the past the now and the future.

I contorted myself into strangest positions and my body kept screaming: ‘BACK BENDS is what I want to do, come on give it a shot.’

I got most humbled in my practice over 10 years ago. When I went to India for my training course, a student helper adjusted me in a full bridge, just pulling me up form above. I heard a big noise and fell to the ground and my back bends were never the same again

There we go – you want it – you get it!

I was nice and warm from the previous work, so I just stood up with the back to the hill. I took a big breath and lifted my arms and arched back, when I breathed out. I stayed for a while and felt how it did and then lifted my hands in the air letting the breath flow using my bandhas . I gently and controlled was guided safely to the ground behind me. It felt just fantastic the controle i felt! After a while I sank to the floor and felt like newly born.

I rested a while with my feet up the hill and my body reclined down the grass. Reminded me of my beloved inversion table at home.

Time flew that day and it was nearly dinner, I did another round in the labyrinth. It was great and made me feel good, nothing as dramatic as the first time. I had a feeling I would like to come here to Beuno’s every year to charge up and clear my mind. After the walk on the magical path I knew I will not come back here.

There was a daily quiet prayer time, just after dinner in the chapel. I once went before to say my thanks and to ask for protection of my loved ones. I missed them today, my heart felt heavy. I knew they were just fine. The communion with the ‘retreaters’ felt really good today.

Not even 2 more days and I am on my way home.

Another great sun set, a little more clear. I did 20 minutes at least. I love the clouds, what would a sunset be without? The pink rimmed dark clouds, the fairy like mist. Ahh, nice.

Wednesday the 1.06.11

A big day I got up bright and bushy tailed, not hungry. I went through the routine of breakfast but only managed a slice of bread with avocado and an oat drink and I really did not need it.

I thought I would be ravenous comes lunch.

I finished Tobias I finished the painting and I got his kind smile, maybe slightly aged, but not bad at all.

And I finished my masterpiece, I typed it all up:

75 paragraphs

4 line each – 300 lines

10 pages

Impressive to read, even worth to publish, but what it meant to me. No one else can feel, what it feels inside of me. I make space for the new. It was an overdue house clean. A clarity not from me. I am free to choose my future.

Thank you Divine, and thank you God, as it was your house in which I rested. The grounds the air, the forest, the cows all wrapped up perfectly for me.

The day passed with sun shine and I loved every minute, marvelled by the work unfolding on my lap top now.

Yes, I did get a sun gaze and I am happy to stop here. I do not intend to loose any weight, yet what a pleasurable diet. I like the food that the earth provides, I do not need the galactic soup. I did a good 30 min. and I went for a walk, along to the labyrinth garden.

What I found there was wonderful, I managed to completely forgive.

I did move along one step at a time, only a brief pause in the centre, I knew I needed to just keep walking to leave the past behind me.

I felt wonderful when it was done, all the stars aligned around me. I totally forgot the email I got form the Celestine timings. I usually do not pay much attention, it is a lot of crazy stuff., but the 1.06.11 stood out very clearly for me. The time was 21.07 pm when the planets align and I looked at the clock and it just turned 21.10.

I do not think one could spend this magical time any better, then letting go of what’s long overdue.

A blood red sun sunk into the sea on my way home to the cottage.

Thursday 02.06.11

I slept till 9am, gosh , guess I was not very hungry. I usually get up at 7 latest to do my Yoga and that feels like a big lie in to me.

I had a bowl of muesli and was most amused, when Simon my room made took a shower and the electricity went off. There he stood still covered in soap, wrapped up in a towel. I was so busy writing again, I’m sorry I was not of much help, Simon.

My final piece a poem for St. Beuno’s inspired by my lesson last night. Topped with the meeting with Anne, my director for the time. We did not have any meetings  since starting silence, notes were passed most days.

I thanked her for her kindness and shared my experience with her.

She did what she had promised, she held my space for me, for me to just unfold in silence.

She looked after all my primitive needs so I could focus on spirit. St. Beuno’s was a protector to me and my little cottage.

I did get some lunch, it was made with love and care.

Jill really is an angel, she just does not know it yet.

She has the greatest job of all at St. Beuno’s and can’t quite see that yet.

I told her she feeds the people – and this is the biggest job on earth.

Get inspired by it, than food is truly God. It enters all the people and transforms into them.

If One would truly want to change the world?

I would bless all the food there is.

‘A safe place to BE – a safe place to ASK.

The walls thick like a fortress, a castle .

The grounds drenched in peoples prayers.

The air filled with answers and insights.

The sun is the sign of letting go

blood red and yet so peaceful,

when your work is done.’

It was strange talking afterwrds at the breakfast table, you did not know anyone really yet connected so deeply.

All be blessed thank you for journeying with me

Namaste

Simone